On Starting
I have and continue to struggle with making myself visible. I keep returning to this familiar block, yet the breakthrough always seems out of reach- especially when it comes to revealing my inner world and my spiritual seeking. God has sent me countless messages gently guiding me to just start, but I always found an excuse why now is not the right time. Last night, my sleep was restless, and I woke up with a deep desire to confront this fear. When I opened Substack, the familiar pattern pressed loudly for me to give in. Then I heard a quiet whisper: “Turn to the Saints…” My body stirred with energy, and I knew- this is the path to follow.
I regularly read the stories of the saints and find the female ones particularly resonant. They are a beautiful inspiration for a virtuous, pure life, one “drenched in God”. After doing some research, I selected the saints whose mission is devoted to new beginnings, overcoming the fear of being seen, creativity, and Divine purpose:
Saint Hildegard of Bingen- the Voice of Divine Creativity
A mystic, artist, composer, and healer, she spent much of her early life in silence until she heard a call to speak and create. She feared being seen, yet obeyed the divine impulse to share her insights. She blesses those who step forward as instruments of light.
“I am the feather on the breath of God.”
Saint Francis of Assisi- Trust in Divine Purpose
He left privilege behind to live in alignment with truth and love. His presence encourages releasing fear of judgment and stepping into an authentic life.
“Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible.”
Saint Mary Magdalene- Devotion and Visibility
She is the epitome of sacred embodiment. In her life, she moves from shadow to radiance. She supports those who are called to show their inner truth openly, to lead with love and authenticity, and to stand in their light without apology.
“She turned toward the light and was not the same.”
Saint Brigid of Kildare- New Creation
She is the patroness of creative people and those tending to sacred spaces. Her energy supports the birthing of new creative projects and communities.
“The fire of Brigid is the fire of inspiration and the courage to begin.”
Saint Varvara- Integrity
She remained true to her values even under the pressure of her father, demonstrating unwavering courage in the face of danger. Her energy supports when fear of judgement arises- the courage to share your truth even if it feels risky.
“She stood firm in the light of her own truth, and fear could not silence her.”
I felt I needed to call on all these saints collectively, so I did- and here I am. My heart is full of gratitude and humility. They faced extreme circumstances yet remained true to their True Selves. I honor their paths and choose to follow in their footsteps.
